Today marks one year since I hit that “Publish” button for the first time as founder and creator of this blog Textures of Grace. I think it was at 4:00 in the morning to be exact! I remember my heart was pounding so hard at that moment I thought it was going to fly out of my chest! But I had to keep calm and quiet because my husband was sleeping soundly beside me. Little did I know where this little space on the internet would take me. Nor did I know how much blogging would effect every single day of my life after that. I repeat EVERY SINGLE DAY!
One day I will share my story on how Textures of Grace got started, but for today’s post I thought I would share some “who knew?” moments that blogging has impacted in my day to day life over the last year. Some are candid, some are tough, and some are amazing.
– that my beloved bubble baths would no longer be my relaxing get away from the daily stresses of life, but rather just another office space to catch up on blogging tasks from my phone.
– that I would go from NEVER letting people take my photos to having weekly photoshoots in very public and sometimes busy places. And THEN actually plastering those photos all over the world wide web EVERY SINGLE DAY! [insert anxiety gasp here]
– that being a social media prisoner was part of the job description. [it is no joke guys! INSANE! I touch more on that HERE.]
– that I would gain almost 10 lbs due to Brunching (it’s a blogging thing as I shared HERE and HERE), Wine (my anxiety increased so my wine intake did too!), and Cheese (well because cheese!…and it just reeeeaaally pairs well with wine)! [I’m not so much a new years resolution person, but I believe I actually may have one this year! :/]
– that I would now feel uncomfortable with and sometimes judged by those that knew me before I blogged. [I believe a part of this feeling comes from what I shared HERE.]
– that I would constantly have to remind myself to not disregard my own intuition and creativity regardless if it’s the norm. [comparison can impose on you no matter how much your against it. More on this HERE.]
– that despite my anxiety struggles, others often seek me as a calming spirit to comfort their own anxieties. That then in return end up calming mine. [isn’t God so good like that?]
– that I could learn to accept imperfections as shared HERE.
– that I would meet so many beautiful souls all over this world. And that just like me some are pursuing their purpose in this life one blog post at a time. [these beautiful souls have been a God send numerous times over the past year!]
– that my family would be right by my side every step of the way as my biggest supporters. Even when home cooked meals and a tidy home digressed significantly as I tackled this passion God placed in my heart.
– that my first year of blogging would bring a year of peace in the midst of a storm full of reflection….
My very first post HERE touched on the subject of purpose as I was in a place where mine was unknown. I was basically stepping out of my comfort zone BIG TIME where I felt led. And honestly just hoping blogging would pave a way towards my purpose. More on stepping out of comfort zones HERE.
I’m starting to understand that our purpose is really just to go wherever God leads us. The trick is remaining in tune with God’s voice each step of the way. It’s listening for Him, asking Him questions, telling Him how we feel. He will ALWAYS listen back so it’s nothing but beneficial to share our heart, fears, desires…all of it! And then if we let Him, He will ALWAYS guide our next step. And even hold our hand while doing it if we need it.
Blogging for the last year has definitely had it’s ups and downs. But it’s the ups that confirm my position behind this blog is in deed a God thing. God never said our purpose would be easy or well defined even. But He did say that if we trust Him, He will lead the way to our designed purpose(s). And to me there is nothing more calming or peaceful than being in God’s path no matter the unknowns.
Thank you to each and everyone of you for sharing this journey with me here at Textures of Grace. Your presence, communication, and support does not go unnoticed and I’m eternally grateful. I look forward to what year two brings us.
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